Thursday, June 30, 2011

Last Weekend Alone.

This is hubby and I's last weekend alone of just us and the dogs. I am going to cherish it. 4th of July has always been my favorite holiday and I love being home for it. Normally we go to Pennsylvania to visit my parents which is also nice since it is so much cooler there than here and I can really say I will miss it this year.

Instead it will be just us for the long weekend waiting for our little firecracker's arrival. I went to the dr today and he said strong heartbeat, baby in right position but not dropped or engaged and we have a big zero on cervix. So we wait as it is in God's hands. We have ultrasound on Tuesday and then Dr appointment on Wednesday so by then we will have more answers. If baby girl is smaller, plan is to wait for her arrival. If baby girl is big we can talk inducement, and if she is really big we are talking c-section. None of this can we control and we will just wait until next week to see what God has in store for us. I am big bumped at 37 lbs but I feel great just really round right now...which is good.

Why is this our last weekend alone? Because on Tuesday my inlaws come for 3 weeks and then on Thursday my parents come for the month. Everyone wants to be here for the arrival of their first grandchild. I have always said I want her to come in June but I think this child knows I am still working (mom has a few more things to do) and how much she means to everyone that she is waiting for their arrival before she makes her debut. It is just very stressful with both our families staying under our roof together. We have to worry about their rooms, towels, food and meals. We have had to make a list of instructions of how to turn on tv, how to use stove, how to lock up house, how to feed the dogs. It has been a crazy last two weeks but I think by July 5 we will be ready.

So here is to our last long weekend of just us...just love, just time, no schedules, no deadlines...

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Father's Day and 36 weeks 4 days.

I want to say Happy Father's Day to my husband. Today I let him sleep in and I took the two dogs out for their morning walk. This is a lot to do for me since we live in Florida where the temperatures are now in the 100s. I hide from the sun my enemy at all times. No man could have done more for me these past 2 years from the tears, the fears the money worries and these last 9 months of hormones he has stood by me and loved me and reassured me that no matter what it is gonna be alright. I love you dear and having you with me has made this process so much more enjoyable.

I am officially 36 weeks and 4 days. I am dying in the heat here in Florida. I am still working so I get up each morning and put on the lightest layers of clothes i can find since I am pretty sure I cannot go to work naked although it would be very helpful to me and baby girl. I come home and take naps. I am having a hard time now getting settled into bed but once I do I am out like a light. My hubby says there is no way I can add any more pillows to the bed but I think that is more than possible. Especially to help prevent the dreaded charlie horses which seem to be coming more and more often now.

Dr t said baby firecracker is in position but has not engaged yet. He also said she will not be a premie and he is concered she maybe too large come her due date so we have a ultrasound on July 5 to check for size. I am not upset about this and this child was created by the help of science she can be delivered with the help of science. If it is a scheduled c section then it is in god's hands. I have gained 33 lbs in this process and I feel like a reverse turtle..everything up front. We will see what Dr T. says on Thursday's appointment. My hubby's family arrives July 5, mine arrives July 7 so in away it all may be headed to an inevitable delivery.

Baby is still high to me but she has definately moved down off my stomach because the indigestion is less and the bathroom breaks are more frequent. I know she is getting crowded because her kicks are stronger and less movement. I started writting things down that I want to be sure to tell her:
1) how I cried before and after every dr appointment;
2) how I held my breath at every ultrasound and did not immediately look at the screen;
3) how I talked to her even when I knew she could not hear me;
4) how I prayed every day for her;
5) how we want her so very much and cannot wait to meet her.

I know there is more but it was a start. I am still uncovering all the shower gifts, cards and trying to get the nursery ready in case she arrives early. It is hard to hide all the pink things when our families do not know our little firecracker is a girl!!!

Love and prayers to all...the journey is never over and I am here in teh next phase...but I am always with you.