Ok I know in my last post I promised to write more but here it is over a month from my last post. Work has been crazy (unlike my February post where it was social activities) keeping us busy.
I had a good 22 week check up with dr on Thursday. It is so funny everyone seems to tell me I am to small to be pregnant, I should be bigger, I should eat this, I should not do that... I never realized how many people have opinions until now? Dr said I am right where I am supposed to be and gaining 12 lbs in first 22 weeks puts me square in the middle of NORMAL. His opinion is all that really matters. I find that I have a lot of energy but the heartburn is still there. I love to swim...the pool is one place nothing hurts and I feel great. In the last 2 weeks I have started to feel baby girl moving... I cannot wait until my husband can feel it. He is so excited to being having a girl.
My parents come for a 4 day visit this weekend and they too are excited to see us. The last time they saw me, I was 10 weeks pregnant so alot has changed in the last few months. We will see if they can keep true to their word that they do not want to know what the baby is before it is born. Keep posted to see if they hold out past this visit.
We have no idea on names for baby girl and have nothing to put in the now painted nursery but I am happy and healthy and for now that is what I need. I continue to pray for all of our BLM in my prayers for me and baby girl. I believe he is truly listening and good will come to all of us soon.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
Happy Valentine's Day!!!!!
I know it has been almost a month since my last post. So much has happened....all good for a change. My husband is a Shriner...if you know about Shriners Children's Hospitals they are a non profit organization who treat children for free for many injuries to include burns and various orthopedic needs. Well sometimes his duties require a lot of fundraising and January was the busiest month. It has finally slowed down and I can catch my breath but between work and Shriner Activites we did not have a weekend free since 2011 began!!!!
So this week we had our 19 week appt with OB and we heard the heartbeat again (fast and furious)and found the results of the NTS scan. Our doctor had done the integrated blood screening as well and that was the last piece. He said that we had a 1-4,000 chance of a downs or spina bifida defect which was good since for my age group the odds are in the general population 1-98. I was very relieved and the doctor said if Monday's genetic ultrasound came out without any abnormalities we would not need any further testing. Needless to say that I held my breath and prayed all weekend.
Therefore, this Valentine's Day morning we made it to the hospital for our 8:15 appointment only to be delayed until 9:15. My nerves were shot and my poor husband did not know how to comfort me. The technician was a wonderful woman who had been doing ultrasounds for over 25 years...I felt better as she started the exam but I was still worried. If you have never had one done they take TONS of photos of all parts of the baby. They measure the skull, the brain, the eyes, the chambers off the heart, the size of the kidneys, the rhythmn of the heart, the length of the arms, legs, and make sure there are two hands and feet. Although it was exciting to see the baby since we had not seen it in over 2 months, it was also nerve racking because the technician says nothing about the results as she is doing the scan. My husband tried to ask her but she said "I am just the investigator the doctor will come in after and give you the results." I cannot tell you how nervous I was. At one point I stopped looking at the screen because I just knew something was wrong. I was silently saying my prayers and my husband nudged me and told me to open my eyes and watch the process.
After all the preliminary photos, the tech said ok let me make sure I have all of the information and then she looked at her screen and the photos and charts. I kept saying that if she says we are ok then I can relax. Instead she said, "ok I need some more measurements of the spine" and my heart sank. I had not eaten anything all morning and I felt like throwing up. She took some more photos, and then announced we were done and the doctor would review the scans and come talk to us in a few minutes. I could not wait to get up off the table. My husband kindly wiped up all the gel and helped me get dressed and just smiled and said it's ok just breathe.
I think I always waited for this day. Knowing that is this scan was good, I would take one more positive step towards July. He finally realizes when he is with me at the doctor's office how much stress these appointments cause me. He feels the pain and fear and is at a loss sometimes how to comfort me.
In the end, the doctor and the tech came in and he introduced himself and I officially held my breath and my husband's hand. He said I reviewed all the scans and I wanted you both to know I see no abnormalities and all looks normal to date. I started to cry...I laughed, I smiled and I cried and shook the doctor and the tech's hand so hard I think I broke something.
I almost forgot the best part, prior to the appointment, my husband had given me a Valentine's Day card and I looked at him and said "you know I did not get you a card this year" ( the first time in our 10 yr dating history)...and he said in a way only he could say "well you have been busy, giving me our daughter!!" Yes it is official we are having a little girl!!!!
I know this is not the end of the road. I know there is a long way to go and I am still scared but I am happy today and thankful to God and all my friends, family and my husband who have prayed for us. Today is a a celebration of love, and this year it is the love of our new little girl which we celebrate. I left to go to work and my husband has been painting in the future nursery all day. To say he is excited is a small thing. We have been through so much saddness and disappointment, but if only for today, we smile and we believe that if you trust in God's Divine Providence...you get day's like today, which for this Valentine's Day 2011 is good enough for me. I am praying for us all and I believe in us all to have the strength and faith to make this journey with our spouses and with each other to the end.
Happy Valentine's Day 2011!!!
So this week we had our 19 week appt with OB and we heard the heartbeat again (fast and furious)and found the results of the NTS scan. Our doctor had done the integrated blood screening as well and that was the last piece. He said that we had a 1-4,000 chance of a downs or spina bifida defect which was good since for my age group the odds are in the general population 1-98. I was very relieved and the doctor said if Monday's genetic ultrasound came out without any abnormalities we would not need any further testing. Needless to say that I held my breath and prayed all weekend.
Therefore, this Valentine's Day morning we made it to the hospital for our 8:15 appointment only to be delayed until 9:15. My nerves were shot and my poor husband did not know how to comfort me. The technician was a wonderful woman who had been doing ultrasounds for over 25 years...I felt better as she started the exam but I was still worried. If you have never had one done they take TONS of photos of all parts of the baby. They measure the skull, the brain, the eyes, the chambers off the heart, the size of the kidneys, the rhythmn of the heart, the length of the arms, legs, and make sure there are two hands and feet. Although it was exciting to see the baby since we had not seen it in over 2 months, it was also nerve racking because the technician says nothing about the results as she is doing the scan. My husband tried to ask her but she said "I am just the investigator the doctor will come in after and give you the results." I cannot tell you how nervous I was. At one point I stopped looking at the screen because I just knew something was wrong. I was silently saying my prayers and my husband nudged me and told me to open my eyes and watch the process.
After all the preliminary photos, the tech said ok let me make sure I have all of the information and then she looked at her screen and the photos and charts. I kept saying that if she says we are ok then I can relax. Instead she said, "ok I need some more measurements of the spine" and my heart sank. I had not eaten anything all morning and I felt like throwing up. She took some more photos, and then announced we were done and the doctor would review the scans and come talk to us in a few minutes. I could not wait to get up off the table. My husband kindly wiped up all the gel and helped me get dressed and just smiled and said it's ok just breathe.
I think I always waited for this day. Knowing that is this scan was good, I would take one more positive step towards July. He finally realizes when he is with me at the doctor's office how much stress these appointments cause me. He feels the pain and fear and is at a loss sometimes how to comfort me.
In the end, the doctor and the tech came in and he introduced himself and I officially held my breath and my husband's hand. He said I reviewed all the scans and I wanted you both to know I see no abnormalities and all looks normal to date. I started to cry...I laughed, I smiled and I cried and shook the doctor and the tech's hand so hard I think I broke something.
I almost forgot the best part, prior to the appointment, my husband had given me a Valentine's Day card and I looked at him and said "you know I did not get you a card this year" ( the first time in our 10 yr dating history)...and he said in a way only he could say "well you have been busy, giving me our daughter!!" Yes it is official we are having a little girl!!!!
I know this is not the end of the road. I know there is a long way to go and I am still scared but I am happy today and thankful to God and all my friends, family and my husband who have prayed for us. Today is a a celebration of love, and this year it is the love of our new little girl which we celebrate. I left to go to work and my husband has been painting in the future nursery all day. To say he is excited is a small thing. We have been through so much saddness and disappointment, but if only for today, we smile and we believe that if you trust in God's Divine Providence...you get day's like today, which for this Valentine's Day 2011 is good enough for me. I am praying for us all and I believe in us all to have the strength and faith to make this journey with our spouses and with each other to the end.
Happy Valentine's Day 2011!!!
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Its January!!!!!
I cannot believe it is January!!! I looked up at my desk calender and realized that it has been over 2 weeks since my last post. I will confess, I came down with a terrible cold the first 2 weeks of January. Without medicine to shake it, I drank enough hot decaf tea to change my nationality to British and I have eaten enough oranges to save the Florida Citrus industry. Finally, this week I started to feel better. The downside is that it really affected my food intake. I have only gained 4 lbs and I need to eat more and eat healthier. This is my new task for January 2011. As promised after 12 weeks I definitely have my food cravings come back and i am able to eat more food. Amazing how a body works.
I did have the NTS scan done on January 3rd but my doctor has also done the blood screening so I will not get the official results until February. At my 14 week check up, Dr. T said all the measurements of the ultra sound were normal and the NTS scan looked good but the blood work would be the final answer. For the first time, Dr. T heard the heartbeat of our little firecracker. He used a fetal monitor and for a few LONG second which felt like hours he could not find the sound I enjoy hearing. Then I said a silent prayer closed my eyes and within a few seconds Dr. T found baby firecracker and the heartbeat sounded heavenly.
I still do not enjoy dr visits. I do not go back until 16 weeks for a genetic abnormality 3d ultrasound. Just a super ultrasound to check all 4 chambers of heart developed and limbs are developing. Then back to Dr. T at 18 weeks for another scan and final results of NTS. I hope this will be the end of testing and I will finally breathe freely.
It is nice to be able to eat again, it is nice to have told our co workers and our friends. I even bought my first set of maternity pants as having a waistband and buttons at my waist are not the most comfortable for work. I liked them but they are a bit large...I guess I have room to grow.
When we told our friends, everyone said they had no idea the process we had been going through. Although it was hard, we shared our stories, our tears, our surgeries, and our hopes. I can only hope that by talking about the struggle we have been through we will have some to help others. I always enjoyed speakers who had been through the struggles they were speaking about. It was almost as if I could say there words. I feel that way now about infertility. We are by no means through our journey and we continue each day to hold on to our faith and to believe our little firecracker will be here safely before we know it. At the same time, we embrace our past struggles and we continue to pray for all of us. My fortune cookie the other day said "You are only a quitter when you stop trying" I could totally identify with those words. Here's to all of us on this journey and a promise we will all have a successful end. We never give up even when the pathis closed and difficult, we believe there must be a way!!!!
I did have the NTS scan done on January 3rd but my doctor has also done the blood screening so I will not get the official results until February. At my 14 week check up, Dr. T said all the measurements of the ultra sound were normal and the NTS scan looked good but the blood work would be the final answer. For the first time, Dr. T heard the heartbeat of our little firecracker. He used a fetal monitor and for a few LONG second which felt like hours he could not find the sound I enjoy hearing. Then I said a silent prayer closed my eyes and within a few seconds Dr. T found baby firecracker and the heartbeat sounded heavenly.
I still do not enjoy dr visits. I do not go back until 16 weeks for a genetic abnormality 3d ultrasound. Just a super ultrasound to check all 4 chambers of heart developed and limbs are developing. Then back to Dr. T at 18 weeks for another scan and final results of NTS. I hope this will be the end of testing and I will finally breathe freely.
It is nice to be able to eat again, it is nice to have told our co workers and our friends. I even bought my first set of maternity pants as having a waistband and buttons at my waist are not the most comfortable for work. I liked them but they are a bit large...I guess I have room to grow.
When we told our friends, everyone said they had no idea the process we had been going through. Although it was hard, we shared our stories, our tears, our surgeries, and our hopes. I can only hope that by talking about the struggle we have been through we will have some to help others. I always enjoyed speakers who had been through the struggles they were speaking about. It was almost as if I could say there words. I feel that way now about infertility. We are by no means through our journey and we continue each day to hold on to our faith and to believe our little firecracker will be here safely before we know it. At the same time, we embrace our past struggles and we continue to pray for all of us. My fortune cookie the other day said "You are only a quitter when you stop trying" I could totally identify with those words. Here's to all of us on this journey and a promise we will all have a successful end. We never give up even when the pathis closed and difficult, we believe there must be a way!!!!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Happy New Year 2011!!!!
Where did Christmas go? The last 14 days seem like a blurr. We did leave for my parents house for xmas. When we arrived we had to tell my parents about our little firecracker. My father wanted to have a drink to toast our safe arrival and we needed a reason why I did not want a drink. My husband had made a gift with a photo of our 10 week ultrasound. On the outside it said "what are you doing July 2011?" We got some great photos as my mom and dad opened the package and suddenly realized its meaning. They were thrilled. On Christmas Day, my husband's sister and brother inlaw also got some great photos of my inlaws opening the same gift. The entire family was thrilled. I cannot tell you how many people my parents have told in the 2 weeks we were there. It truly made me realize how many people were silently praying for us and were estatic with our news. Who knew the base of untapped support we had and how blessed I feel that they are all praying for us now. What an experience it was telling our families. I will always remember it. I also took advantage of it and got some well needed rest. Smells and certain holiday foods made eating difficult but my mother was a life savior and made sure I had enough to eat and rest the entire trip. I love you mom. As I am in my 12th week, the nausousness has lessened but I still have the burping and NO DESIRE to eat certain foods. I have gained only 2 lbs but I am sure that will change as my appetite comes back.
Despite all the joyous news, I still feel nervous as we embrace our 12th week. I guess you always do after the journey we have been on. Monday January 3, 2011 is my NTS scan at the hospital. I will not lie, I am scared, I am anxious and I am nervous. I try and remember that I need to relax and remember to Trust in God's Divine Providence. I will but I am still a little nervous. I just want to hear a good heartbeat and know we have some good development. It is all in God's hands and I pray it will be ok. The Dr office called and said all my pregnancy blood work came back normal ( good news) but I have a urinary tract infection and I am now on antibiotics(bad news). I was having problems completely going and I wake up at night to go and it is only 3 months along. I hope the medicine gives me some relief. I am getting really good at reading at 3 in the morning to help me relax and fall back asleep. I hope there is enough books in the library to get through July!! After Monday's scan, I will have to tell everyone at work so we can start planning for my maternity leave....still cannot grasp that plan yet but that is for another post.
So I wish Happy New Year to all and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers as recently there has been some good news on all fronts from these strong women I call friends. It is a new year and I wish all the health,happiness and good luck to everyone. Thank you to each and everyone of you who have given me such kind words. Whether you know it or not they have given me such comfort and they have come sometimes right when I needed some reassurance. I am here for you and I could not get here without you. Happy New Year 2011 and Best of Luck to us all!!!
Despite all the joyous news, I still feel nervous as we embrace our 12th week. I guess you always do after the journey we have been on. Monday January 3, 2011 is my NTS scan at the hospital. I will not lie, I am scared, I am anxious and I am nervous. I try and remember that I need to relax and remember to Trust in God's Divine Providence. I will but I am still a little nervous. I just want to hear a good heartbeat and know we have some good development. It is all in God's hands and I pray it will be ok. The Dr office called and said all my pregnancy blood work came back normal ( good news) but I have a urinary tract infection and I am now on antibiotics(bad news). I was having problems completely going and I wake up at night to go and it is only 3 months along. I hope the medicine gives me some relief. I am getting really good at reading at 3 in the morning to help me relax and fall back asleep. I hope there is enough books in the library to get through July!! After Monday's scan, I will have to tell everyone at work so we can start planning for my maternity leave....still cannot grasp that plan yet but that is for another post.
So I wish Happy New Year to all and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers as recently there has been some good news on all fronts from these strong women I call friends. It is a new year and I wish all the health,happiness and good luck to everyone. Thank you to each and everyone of you who have given me such kind words. Whether you know it or not they have given me such comfort and they have come sometimes right when I needed some reassurance. I am here for you and I could not get here without you. Happy New Year 2011 and Best of Luck to us all!!!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
10 weeks and waiting
Today was a good day but I will confess that my nerves are shot. I had a dr appointment at 1:15. I woke up this morning with anxiety..maybe its because I watched the reality show Guiliana and Bill and they were doing their shots and IVF procedures and I so could identify with them both. I just was so scared. Today was a big appointment. We are going to leave Saturday for my parents, we are going to send a Christmas gifts to my husbands parents who live on the west coast announcing the baby but only if the doctor appointment was good. There was a lot riding on today's appointment and I will say the nerves got the best of me.
I arrived early and there were 3 women ahead of me. When the nurse arrived, it was the same young nurse I had 8 months ago. She said looking at my chart "wow you have been through a lot since I last saw you." My heart dropped. Then she did all the bloodwork, blood pressure, weight while chatting away that this is going to be a good appointment for me and that she is positive thinking but it was not helping. Then she ushered me into an exam room and left me to wait for the doctor.
I did not know that my doctor was delayed at surgery next door. So I was alone for 45 minutes on the exam table. I had a lot of time to think and panic but I prayed..and prayed and prayed. I re-read posts from some of the wonderful ladies who have supported me and I be lived. I heard at mass this weekend the priest say "Trust in God's divine Providence." I kept saying it over and over as the time dragged on. After 45 minutes, the doctor arrived and I instinctively held my breath.
As long as it took to get him in the room, the exam was over before I knew it. Maybe it was because as he did the ultrasound, I close my eyes. I did not want to look at the screen until he told me to look. When I did he had froze the screen and snapped the latest photo of our 10 week old baby. I said did you see the heartbeat? and he and the nurse both laughed they said "Did you see all the movement and the heartbeat? The baby is bouncing along and measured right on track. At that moment, I breathed a large sigh of relief. I do not return to him until January 13, 2010 when I will be 14 weeks. I do have to have the Nuchlar Transluccency Scan (NTS) on January 3, 2010 due to my age which he described as a super duper ultrasound but I was surprised he did not want to see me again until my second trimester but I guess as long as he is happy with my progress so am I.
So off to tell the family next week. I will need their prayers and support as we have never made it this far with any pregnancy before and I know that my husband will be relieved to finally have someone else than me to talk to about this baby. Tomorrow is my last day of work until 2011 and I am so excited. I feel like I can breathe again and for even a short time all is ok in the world. In God there is no failure and I know he is here with us even at the time of year where we focus on him more than any other.
I am off to start packing for Christmas trip home. Smiling, tired but happy...we are on our way!!!I continue to pray for all of the wonderful strong women who share this journey to motherhood with me. I am walking this walk with you...I am praying for us all and I know we can do this together!!!!
I arrived early and there were 3 women ahead of me. When the nurse arrived, it was the same young nurse I had 8 months ago. She said looking at my chart "wow you have been through a lot since I last saw you." My heart dropped. Then she did all the bloodwork, blood pressure, weight while chatting away that this is going to be a good appointment for me and that she is positive thinking but it was not helping. Then she ushered me into an exam room and left me to wait for the doctor.
I did not know that my doctor was delayed at surgery next door. So I was alone for 45 minutes on the exam table. I had a lot of time to think and panic but I prayed..and prayed and prayed. I re-read posts from some of the wonderful ladies who have supported me and I be lived. I heard at mass this weekend the priest say "Trust in God's divine Providence." I kept saying it over and over as the time dragged on. After 45 minutes, the doctor arrived and I instinctively held my breath.
As long as it took to get him in the room, the exam was over before I knew it. Maybe it was because as he did the ultrasound, I close my eyes. I did not want to look at the screen until he told me to look. When I did he had froze the screen and snapped the latest photo of our 10 week old baby. I said did you see the heartbeat? and he and the nurse both laughed they said "Did you see all the movement and the heartbeat? The baby is bouncing along and measured right on track. At that moment, I breathed a large sigh of relief. I do not return to him until January 13, 2010 when I will be 14 weeks. I do have to have the Nuchlar Transluccency Scan (NTS) on January 3, 2010 due to my age which he described as a super duper ultrasound but I was surprised he did not want to see me again until my second trimester but I guess as long as he is happy with my progress so am I.
So off to tell the family next week. I will need their prayers and support as we have never made it this far with any pregnancy before and I know that my husband will be relieved to finally have someone else than me to talk to about this baby. Tomorrow is my last day of work until 2011 and I am so excited. I feel like I can breathe again and for even a short time all is ok in the world. In God there is no failure and I know he is here with us even at the time of year where we focus on him more than any other.
I am off to start packing for Christmas trip home. Smiling, tired but happy...we are on our way!!!I continue to pray for all of the wonderful strong women who share this journey to motherhood with me. I am walking this walk with you...I am praying for us all and I know we can do this together!!!!
Friday, December 10, 2010
9 weeks and waiting
Since my last post it has been a crazy week. We are planning on leaving next Saturday for my parents house for Christmas so I have 2 weeks at work to get 4 weeks worth of things done. I have been so tired after the day I cannot even think about reading any of my library books, my blogs, or newspapers I go right to bed.
I am still having a tough time with my stomach not throwing up, but just sour. No food is appealing and I eat like a 2 yr old of cereal, applesauce, toast and some fruit when I can. It has gotten better but it is still present. I also have trouble sleeping through night. I wake up each night and for 1-2 hours I watch tv to try and get sleepy to go back to bed. Lucky that husband and dogs are heavy sleepers.
My next appointment is on the 16th and we will have another ultrasound. I am hoping to be a great visit as we are leaving two days later and we plan to tell our families on Christmas about the pregnancy. I hope we get a good photo so we can use it in the unveiling of everyone's first grandchild. I am scared to death to tell anyone. It has been 9 weeks and only hubby and I and the doctors know about our little firecracker. I am hoping after this visit I can breath and tell our families. I will need them to finish this pregnancy and more prayers are always welcome.
I still have anxiety, I still feel like I am waiting for the other show to drop but I tell the devil to leave me and I focus on the power of god. He has gotten me safe this far and I know he will be with me through it all to the end. This is his season and I feel strong when I think of his power and glory to create a son to a woman who had been born without sin and did not know man. I know he can be with us as we bring this child to our families this season.
I hope next week goes by quickly and I am hoping and praying for good dr appointments (something will never change). I am keeping all of you in my prayers for this holiday season. Good things for us all.
I am still having a tough time with my stomach not throwing up, but just sour. No food is appealing and I eat like a 2 yr old of cereal, applesauce, toast and some fruit when I can. It has gotten better but it is still present. I also have trouble sleeping through night. I wake up each night and for 1-2 hours I watch tv to try and get sleepy to go back to bed. Lucky that husband and dogs are heavy sleepers.
My next appointment is on the 16th and we will have another ultrasound. I am hoping to be a great visit as we are leaving two days later and we plan to tell our families on Christmas about the pregnancy. I hope we get a good photo so we can use it in the unveiling of everyone's first grandchild. I am scared to death to tell anyone. It has been 9 weeks and only hubby and I and the doctors know about our little firecracker. I am hoping after this visit I can breath and tell our families. I will need them to finish this pregnancy and more prayers are always welcome.
I still have anxiety, I still feel like I am waiting for the other show to drop but I tell the devil to leave me and I focus on the power of god. He has gotten me safe this far and I know he will be with me through it all to the end. This is his season and I feel strong when I think of his power and glory to create a son to a woman who had been born without sin and did not know man. I know he can be with us as we bring this child to our families this season.
I hope next week goes by quickly and I am hoping and praying for good dr appointments (something will never change). I am keeping all of you in my prayers for this holiday season. Good things for us all.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Our little July Firecracker
My second favorite holiday is 4th of July. I do not know if it is the heart of summer,fun and food or the patriotism but it is my favorite holiday behind Thanksgiving. After all my doctor appointments this week, it is my favorite month because it is when our first child is due - July 14, 2011.
My appointment with the RE on November 30, 2010 was scary but very positive. I think my husband and I held out breathe as the doctor came in and started the ultrasound. In fact I did not even look at the screen initially because I was afraid what would be there or not be there. Then the RE turned on the sound and I heard the sweetest noise in the world as our baby's heartbeat. I have never heard such a beautiful sound. The RE said all measurements looked great and he said congratulations and officially graduated us from his program. I think we were still in such shock that we could not even process all the information. The doctor's office gave us a nice graduation package and our babies first teddy bear and photo. I wanted to stare at the screen all day so I guess the photo was a good alternative.
After being released from my RE it was back to my OBGYN who I knew because of my history would want to see me sooner than later which was today December 2, 2010. I was the only patient there this morning and Dr. T took his time. He went over all my records from the RE and I can tell he was going slow so not to get too excited. Then was time for the ultrasound and once again I held my breath. I do not know when and if I will ever stop worrying and actually enjoy these exams but they are still so taxing. There was our little July firecracker with its heart beating away and had even grown in just 2 days from last ultrasound. I was so happy and so was Dr. T. He said "this is a good thing" and he acknowledged that I have been waiting so long for some good news and he was glad to be able to give it to me. He gave me all the normal cautions but he was truly happy with my exam and our little firecracker who measured at 8 weeks. He wants to see me again in 2 weeks just before we leave to go home to my family for Christmas when we should be about 10 weeks. I started to breathe after I left his office.
I want to say thank you to everyone who has been praying for us these last few weeks. I can feel your prayers and I rely on your strength. I still worry every day, I still feel like the other shoe is gonna drop, but I am slowly able to embrace the joy of this pregnancy. I miss my two other pregnancies but I have learned so much and like Dr. T said I have waited a long time just to get to this point it feels good to be in the moment and we are happy just to be here. God is truly all powerful and I thank him for this July blessing every second of the day. Thank you all for being here on the walk and to all of us who still have our journeys to go I am believing in you, for me and for all of us.
My appointment with the RE on November 30, 2010 was scary but very positive. I think my husband and I held out breathe as the doctor came in and started the ultrasound. In fact I did not even look at the screen initially because I was afraid what would be there or not be there. Then the RE turned on the sound and I heard the sweetest noise in the world as our baby's heartbeat. I have never heard such a beautiful sound. The RE said all measurements looked great and he said congratulations and officially graduated us from his program. I think we were still in such shock that we could not even process all the information. The doctor's office gave us a nice graduation package and our babies first teddy bear and photo. I wanted to stare at the screen all day so I guess the photo was a good alternative.
After being released from my RE it was back to my OBGYN who I knew because of my history would want to see me sooner than later which was today December 2, 2010. I was the only patient there this morning and Dr. T took his time. He went over all my records from the RE and I can tell he was going slow so not to get too excited. Then was time for the ultrasound and once again I held my breath. I do not know when and if I will ever stop worrying and actually enjoy these exams but they are still so taxing. There was our little July firecracker with its heart beating away and had even grown in just 2 days from last ultrasound. I was so happy and so was Dr. T. He said "this is a good thing" and he acknowledged that I have been waiting so long for some good news and he was glad to be able to give it to me. He gave me all the normal cautions but he was truly happy with my exam and our little firecracker who measured at 8 weeks. He wants to see me again in 2 weeks just before we leave to go home to my family for Christmas when we should be about 10 weeks. I started to breathe after I left his office.
I want to say thank you to everyone who has been praying for us these last few weeks. I can feel your prayers and I rely on your strength. I still worry every day, I still feel like the other shoe is gonna drop, but I am slowly able to embrace the joy of this pregnancy. I miss my two other pregnancies but I have learned so much and like Dr. T said I have waited a long time just to get to this point it feels good to be in the moment and we are happy just to be here. God is truly all powerful and I thank him for this July blessing every second of the day. Thank you all for being here on the walk and to all of us who still have our journeys to go I am believing in you, for me and for all of us.
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