Saturday, July 23, 2011

Our Firecracker is here!!

Our daughter Mackenzie( better known as our firecracker) arrived on July 13, 2011 at 5:11pm via c-section at 8 lbs 10 oz and 20 inches. I also got my wish from the last post, she is the spitting image of her father in her personality, demeanor, way she sleeps, right down to her baby blues ( i know they will probably change ) but I love looking into her little face that there she is no doubt Daddy's little girl.

The c section went well for a major surgery. I had a great hospital with great staff and I enjoyed my 3 day stay more than I think since my home was over run with parents and in laws. The calming of the room, having baby Mackenzie sleep next to me all during the stay made for some great mommy/daughter bonding in the early days of her life. It also allowed me to recover. The c section only hard thing to recover is the incision..the staples have been leaking,an early return to my doctor but otherwise I feel really well.

We came home on Saturday to pink balloons and a story in the yard announcing our arrival and a wonderful home cooked meal with family. It was nice to see all those who have loved and supported us through this journey be able to hold and hug our baby. At the same time it has been quite overwhelming. All I wanted is a little piece of quiet and a place to heal and try and breastfeed our daughter. There has been very little of the above and I have taken to counting down to when everyone goes home ( 3 days left) but I have enjoyed the help with the food and laundry.

When you breastfeed, you and baby are inseperable which has not given me a lot of time to get anything else done or to heal. With the draining incision, I have had to lay more than I would like but it is improving each day. I am trying to catch up on my library books, and reading newspaper but I also catnap when Mackenzie naps.

Mackenzie does not like a sponge bath, or her little hand mittens for her nails. She does like her dog siblings,breastfeeding ( thank god),her swing, and her bobby pillow. It is amazing as she is 10 days old today and I do not know what our home was like without her.

I thank god for her, I thank my friends and family for their prayers and their support. I am grateful that she is here and thriving. I am praying for all those who share my journey. ( a great article in today's Wall Street Journal called "My Fertility Crisis" made me cry)...I pray for my 2 angels who are watching down over their sister who they helped guide to this end. Thank you my darlings, Mommy loves all her children and today that is just enough.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Today is the day

I love shipwrecks and there is a great story about the Atocha ship off Florida Keys. It was sunk in the 1600s filled with Spanish gold and silver. Mel Fisher serachedf or over 10 years to find this vessel and every morning he would not get discouraged with his failures, his losses, he would simply say "Today's the Day" and one day it was and he found the vessel and has and continues to recover billion of dollars.

So Today's the Day! We are off to the hospital for a c section today at 1:30. Baby girl has never dropped, never engaged and no movement in dillation or cervix. Last ultrasound last week had the estimate at 9lbs and the dr believes the reason at 40 weeks we have no movement is that the little firecracker has nowhere to go. So off to hospital we go.

I am fine with the c section. This child was created with the help of science, 4 surgeries and I am fine with her delivery being with the help of science and a surgery.

I went yesterday for the pre registration at the hospital and they were very busy and disorganzied. I did not like that feeling as it did not reassure me that everything would be smooth but eventually they were able to get the doctor's paperwork and go through the checklist.

So now, I have the bad packed, and my family are all eating breakfast in the other room as I cannot eat or drink anything until surgery. I still have heartburn and I took the last one I said good bye to Tums and hope that I get some relief from the heartburn.

I will update later but it is near the end of a long journey...22 months, 2 miscarriages, 4 surgeries and many tears, shots, prayers. It is near the end to see our firecracker. Thank you for the prayers, thanks for the good thoughts. Let's hope firecracker is calm and cool like her father this morning as he is my rock and we would not be here without him.